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In Another Life

I sit here on this lonely stratch 

Querring myself, over all the things 

I have thought of, dreamt of, wished for, and looked at

Things that seem like a fairy tale, yet so real

What If I said, all I need is you, 

To share the joy, the sadness, 

The misery, the success, 

And it's insane, how the roads of my life have changed it's way

In which, every path I take, leads me to the place, where you stay

What if I said, all I want is to suffice this one yearning

If I could have just one wish, just one say

I would wish to wake up everyday, 

To the sound of your breath on my neck,

With the warmth of your lips on my cheek

And the touch of your fingers on my skin,

The feel of your heart beating with mine, 

And On your face, to see the bright sun shine

It's all I'll ever want, wish or desire. 

What if I said, that there is no corner, no dark place,

That Your love cannot escape? 

And if the world comes crashing down, 

It's your warmth, that makes it peaceful to be around.

What If I said, In your arms is where I want to be, 

For it's the only place that feels like home, 

Within a million lonely streets

What If I said, I want to see your face in every kind of light

Be able to whisper those spellbouded words in your ears

At any given time, or place

And when you stand before the candles on a cake,

I want to be the one to hear the silent wish you make. 

The dilemma comes here, because I know, 

All this will always remain a mere dream

But don't you worry, my love 

I'll find you, somehow,   

Somewhere, far away from this world

Past all our differences, and the reasons,  

You'll be my boy, and I'll be your only girl

In another life, I feel. (: 

Never Good Enough

I don't know why, how I have become such an introvert. I love making people close to me feel special, and on the other hand, I don't even think I matter much, or am special for anyone to the extent they are. I feel like I am not good enough. For anything, any work, any one. And if not a disappointment to others, to myself. 

I used ignore or argue when people used to comment on me or anything. But now, I just agree. And not only agree, I have started believing in what they say. A girl tells me "People leave you, 'cause they get sick and tired of you" and I have no other option, than to agree with her. I doubt if someone ever calls me a loser, I will do/say anything about it. Guess, I'll just smile, and nod in agreeement. I don't know how, when, why. I just don't EVER feel good enough. I feel like a huge disappointment, to my family, friends and everyone around. I keep comparing myself to people, sometimes, and I am never the one who is any better than any one. Even the people with the worst deeds, and worst hearts. I feel like I am not good enough, in fact never was, and never will be. The sole reason why people always tend to leave, is they get sick of me, and I am trying my best that people don't get bored of me, now. But they do, and they will, sooner or later. I want to get hurt. A car accident, Anything. I want to get injured enough to wind up in a hospital, just to see if anyone would come to make sure that I am okay. And I'd pretend to be sleeping or, dying, so in case, anyone actually did come, they would sit at the edge of my bed, crying, and tell me everything they've ever thought about me, how they really feel, if they're sorry for anything, I want to know how much I matter. I want to know the truth. 

Is It Just another movie?

To be honest, I agree,  I am one of those people who actually get carried away by a movie, a story, a poem, or even a little piece of good artwork.
But this movie, Rockstar. Starring Ranbir and Nargis, it just completely took me away to some other world.
I absolutely loved, every bit of the movie, every line, every song, each and every bit.
The acting, haven't seen people act, so honestly in a long time, now.
And the songs. <3
Specially Tum Ho. It gives me goosebumps, every single time I listen to it.
The way the actors looked in each other's eyes, saying every single word, was just priceless.
I was enjoying the movie, laughing, crying along with the characters, till it reached it's climax.
I mean, it's okay to get upset because of a bad ending of movie, but THIS much?
I mean, I was so upset, depressed, and on the top of it all, anxious 'cause of it, that I couldn't talk to any one the way I do. I was mean to people, all day long, without any reason.
And all I was thinking of was, that is not fair, they deserve to be together, after all that they've gone through. And I kept telling myself to relax, and that it was just a mere movie, but I don't know what was wrong with me, I just couldn't get it off my mind.
Maybe because I am too used to "happy endings", and Oh, life is so awesome stories.
On a more deep level, it was more real, yeah, which most of the bollywood movies fail to achieve nowadays. Maybe, the reason why it got me, is that it was too real, and something that audience's wouldn't really expect, in the end.
I don't even know why I am writing this, all I know is, this movie touched me, in a very strange way, and it will always be a memorable one, even though I am never watching it again. EVER.

No matter how much I loved it.

Farewell. (:

Something I wrote, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE :D (:

Take me away?

Would I cross my lines, If I say, 

that all I am wanting at the moment is you, taking me away? 

somewhere, where we could be alone,

somewhere, where all that matters is us,

and the way we feel..

Just take me away from this dead space

Somewhere, which is so beautiful

just like the look in your eyes..

Somewhere, which is sweet..

as sweet as the sound of your voice..

Would I sound too cheesy, If I say

that I wanna be with you FOREVER,

not the forever that they think of nowadays,

but the kinda forever, people write novels about,

the one's which actually last forever..

Would you be too bored, to be with me?

throughout your days/nights, highs/lows..

Would you be too scared,

If I share every single heartbeat with you?

I don't know, maybe you wouldn't, or you would,

but regardless of everything, all I wanna say is, 

Just take me away, somewhere,

which is beautiful, just like the look in your eyes.
and as sweet as the sound of your voice...

Another Love Letter..

"Love" what is it? 

Something? Nothing? EVERYTHING?

Who knows?

I don't know why I am writing this, cause  no, its not gonna affect anyone at all, whatsoever. 

But, lately, I have been hearing, A LOT about, the word, its absurd how people just generalize everything about it. 

Okay, to start with, when do you know you love someone? 

Wait, do you even know it? 

It just happens, right?

In a blink of an eye. 

It just happens. 

And you can't help it, no matter how hard you try.

And then there are this "villians" who destroy everything for you. 

And who would they be? The ex's  ^.^

Yes, the jerks, bitches who never actually loved you, but you loved them with all your heart, brains, and everything. :P  

Happens. And then you are heartbroken, you change the whole idea of "love" in your mind, and yeah, you are not the one to blame.

Its natural. 

But why let the people in your present suffer because of people in your past?

What's the fault of the people that actually do love you? 

Why are they the ones to suffer? 

Oh, and the thing I have been hearing about the most, the biggest question in people's mind, nowadays, is, can someone fall in love with someone without even meeting them in real life? 

Answer - Yes, you can. (okay before you say "you are so stupid", I have an explaination) 

The basic facts, the REASONS, you love someone, is you care for them, a lot, even a little thing that bothers them, bothers you too, You just want to talk to them, most of the time, why? Cause you are just happy. Just simply, HAPPY. 

What if you think you found the RIGHT one, and only cause he/she is faaaaaaaaaaaar away from you, does that mean, you should let him/her go? Why? Cause duhh, you guys cant walk hand in hand on beaches, can't meet each other, can't hold each other > that's SICK.

Tbh, yeah, I understand, people kinda need it, but WHOAA! you let go off a PERFECT thing just cause of that? 

And yes, things ARE perfect, you make it perfect, and when you want to. 

You just never realize it, humans are way too unobservant. 

In other cases, Trust.

Who do you trust completely? Ahh, come on, don't tell me that you trust every single person you meet in your day to day life? Seriously, just because some bitches broke your trust in past, does not mean, no one else is worth it. 

Oh, talking about "bitches in your past" 

If they are heartless enough to break your heart, be generous enough to save it from falling apart. 

Not like they give a shit about you, anyways. 

What else? 

What is it when two people understand every single thing about each other, before even the person utters it, you know exactly what they are thinking about.

Maybe I am way too unrealistic about it, but wait, when was love about being real, anyways? 

"The truth is Everybodys gonna hurt you, you just got to find the ones worth suffering for" 

^ So absolutely true. 

Maybe I don't make sense, but yeah, that's what I think. 

I am not trying to change anyone's views or anything, but that's something I believe. 

Okay, once you are in love, you are told to stop. > LOL. 

Stop cause its gonna hurt you. (STOP hurting me then)

Stop cause it can't work out. (How do you know?) 

Stop cause I don't love you anymore (hahaha, you sure you did earlier?) :P 

And for the people who DO get into relationships, why on earth do you get into one when you can't compromise with little things? 

Its simple, If your guy/girl doesn't like you talking to another girl/guy, that means he/she is insecure, in better words, scared of losing you. 

and then you start feeling trapped, why? cause that's not what you wanted. 

you wanted the person you were in love with, but no, you don't wanna compromise with absolutely little things. And No, you are not at fault, we are all individuals, and we all bother about our wishes, our freedom, our lives more than anything and everything.

Which is absolutely reasonable, because no one stays with you always, anyways. 

Why don't they stay? 

Boredom is one of the reasons. 

MOST people get bored of each other. To be REALLY honest.

I mean, yeah, you just run out of things to say, its not even funny. 

I am blank. now.

I have no idea why I wrote all this. 

But just wanna say, if you believe in something/someone, do it completely, and if you don't,just don't, at all, whatsoever.

Why hurt yourself by half trust or whatever you wanna call it. 

And yeah, you are the dumbest person on earth if you trust the same person over again, or say give them another chance. 

If they have cheated on you before, they will again, and you will be dumb enough to forgive them again.So, Dont.

Okay, so now when you are heart broken, lets start believing in - "Love jaisa kuch nai hota" > Hota hai. 

Aur kuch aisa hota hai, that changes you, DRASTICALLY. Without you even realizing it. 

The way you think, the way you talk, the way you wanna live, the way you see things, even the way you dress, every little thing changes, within you, its like you become a whole new person. 

I may sound way too cheesy and filmy but it IS the bestestestest feeling. It's like you don't know unless it happens to you.  

Even after turning into a whole new person, you realize that's what you were, always, its just that one person who bought the changes in you. And its good, cause you feel found? idk, If how to explain it.

Maybe I sound too stupid, unrealistic or whatever you wanna call it. Its just that something, you can't help it.  

 I can go on and on and on about it..but lets just end this with...  

If you actually read the whole thing, there was that one person you were thinking about, throughout, just don't let that person go. No matter what. 

P.S. Everything you read above was clearly, and completely what I feel, you don't have to agree, at all. 

Louis Bernières says... (I Personally think, this is THE best/truest way someone can define the EVERdefined word "Love"

Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don’t blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being “in love”, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

Random (: P.S. I can't rhyme :P -.-

She has these dreams for a while now, 

the most beautiful yet the most unrealized ones 

It's been quite a while that the sun glowing on her face

feels a lot more purer and blissful than it ever has before 

The rains, the dew drops were way more than just simple beauty of nature,

they were priceless, divine and the most wonderful things the surroundings can ever nurture

No matter how worse the things get, she was happy, the kind of happy she doesn't know the meaning of. 

There should be a reason behind it all. 

What must that be?

It was HIM 

The way he smiled and told her its all going to be alright, 

The way he brings out the best in her, 

The way no one else ever saw her how he did, 

The way she never needs anything when he's around

It was something that always remained confound

The shine in his eyes was brighter than the brightest star in the night skyThe face of an angel, the one she could recognize in a clique of a billion other facesThe one that shows her the right path to life. 

Deep down, in her heart, she knows that someday

she'll be at the end of life, where the lost will go,

to the land of gloom and to the darkest hue,

Where the dreams of life will never come true.

Despite of this never ending war between her heart and the mind, In the midst of reality and fantasy 

All she knows is that she is happy, as happy as she can ever be

and all she wants is for him to be happy too,
'cause she'll always be here with him. (:

Hate is a huge word, Love is Vast. (:

I hate you.. 

I hate how you are the best thing I have known

I hate how you don't even have to try to make me happy

I hate how you know the perfect thing to say

I hate how just a look of you makes my day

I hate how your voice can heal the deepest pain

I hate how you are able to see sorrow in my smile

Love behind my anger and 

reason behind my silence

I hate how you know me way better than I know myself

I hate how you are YOU and don't pretend like others

I hate how I can be myself with you

'cause I know that you know who I really am

I hate how you try to tease me on my stupidity 

I hate how you have such a beautiful soul 

I hate how you hide your pain so easily 

just by faking a "smile" on that face of yours (: 

I hate how you're so humble even to the people who don't deserve it

I hate how I have never met anyone so amazing yet simple like you

And I most definitely hate how I couldn't use the word "LOVE" in everything I said (: 

A Beautiful Story (:

What IS happiness? Another complicated word. Hmmm, Well, I guess its different for every individual, for some it's money, for some it's friends, for some it's that special person, for some it's just their dreams and desires. Something they REALLY want in their lives. And when you don't get what you want, it depresses you. To the core. It's like the end of the world, and nothing seems right, and you are down all the time, not wanting to talk to anyone, carrying that fake smile everywhere you go. 
Happens. That's called life. It's not easy, never was, never will be. But you know what? It's more important to be happy than anything else in the entire world. Because, no matter how bad things are, no matter how many people don't care about you, no matter how hard it is, You really have those few people, who actually care, you really have those few things you can be grateful for, you really have those good reasons for everything bad. And about the "love" thing, trust me, you deserve way better than you think for yourself (: 


I don't know what I am heading to, but I think, this story would make sense and prove the above points? I really don't want to prove anything, but umm, yeah here it goes. 


There was this man, not much literate, started his career by going from house to house and selling milk. And somehow, later he got a job in this factory, and started working. He'd work day and night, and earn as much as he could, to feed his children and wife, he'd never let them go without having anything they want or desire, and do anything and everything he could, for them. They were his life. Even if he was poor, he worked as hard as he could to give his children the BEST education he could. And well, his hard work was all worth it, his children grew up to be an engineer, a Chartered Accountant, and a Scientist. 

And as days passed by, and he became older, he developed a lot of diseases, maybe because of the lack of vaccines and medications in his childhood days. He got a paralysis attack. The left side of his body was numb. He couldn't do a thing with the left side of his body, he was partially dead, in other words. Even his brain, wasn't functioning normal, had trouble understanding easiest things, would forget who are the people around him, panick. Well, his children took him to the BEST doctors in the country, but all of them said the same thing, that it's a genetic disease, and there's no solution to it. It might get better, but he can never be normal again. He got a little better with time and now could walk with crutches 


Well, here comes the part, where he had to live with that fact. The fact that he could never do any thing with his own hands, he'll always be dependent on someone or the other, for every single thing. The man who NEVER asked anyone for any kinds of favor whatsoever, has to now live on favors, each and every day of his life. He knew his life could end, any moment, but he didn't get depressed by thinking about it, never let any one in his family even think about it, cracks jokes all day, smiles, laughs, makes others laugh too. He'd get this pension, the money people get after retirement. And whenever he gets that money, there's this cirppled beggar, in his neighborhood, he'd go and drop some amount of money in to his little bowl. Without fail, and he'd tell someone to get a chair for him, and he'd sit there and talk to him, and crack those silly jokes he always does, and make the beggar smile, probably the only day he smiles, is that day. And wonder who brings him the chair, does everything for him? From dressing him up to feeding him, to washing his hands, to making him drink water, every single thing. It was his wife. She'd be with him, every second, and take care of everything he needed, and cared for him like a mother does for her infant. She had an option to leave him, and go away, go back to her mother, or even get married again. But she didn't. Why would she? She loved that man. Not for the way he looked, not because he could earn enough money to satisfy her needs. Because if that was the reason, she would have left her and gone away, and lead a easier, a hell lot easier life. And wouldn't have to worry about him anymore, but instead she chose the harder path, the path that had struggle's for her every single day, and she was still happy, you know why? Because she was with him. Through his lows and ups. They'd spend all day talking about their children, their grandkids, and how life is so beautiful. And praying to god, and thanking him for everything they had. And they'll continue doing this, until the end of the times. Together. FOREVER. (: 


This story inspires me. Because, after all, Its a true story. These amazing people are none other than my grandfather and my grandmother. (: 
My grandpa tells me, that god judges you, all the time, every second of your life, gives you the toughest roads to walk on, with a lot of broken glasses and pebbles and nothing to cover your feet with, and that's only because he gives the hardest to the ones that deserve the best, so that when they get the best, they value it, unlike the ignorant ones that have everything easy, and still aren't satisfied with their lives. 


And my grandma is the reason I know what actually "love" is. What it is that people ALWAYS seem to talk, wonder, and debate about, but are still clueless. THIS is what love is for me.
THEY are the definition of love for me. This is the kind of love that has no selfishness, no demands, just a promise, of being together, till the end of the time. And they are the one who make me believe that FOREVER does exist, and it exists so beautifully (: 



I want to end this with saying that love and happiness with stick with you throughout your life, in some or the other way (: 


SO SO SO JUST SMAAILLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, LIFE'S WAY MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN YOU KNOW OF IT, YET :) :D 

Reality and Dreams (:

This is a story. A little imperfect, a little cute. A little "cheesy" is what most people are likely to look at it as. A story about a girl and a guy. Both, a imperfectly perfect, in their own little ways. It begins, on this absolutely beautiful and special day. The day when they were finally going to meet. The girl's train arrives at the station, a sudden rush of happiness, excitement and nervousness slits through her. She's been waiting for this day, since forever. The kinda forever  She could finally see him, tell him all that she always wanted to, everything she was waiting for him to know, all those feelings she had inside of her, since so long, how she loves the way he smiles, how he's all she ever knows, how she wanted to be with him, now and forever, how she wanted to show him that forever does exist. She could finally tell him what she's been writing on those blank pages, those unsent letters, how she has promised herself to be with him, throughout this strange journey of life. She was here, waiting for him. Her heartbeat raced faster and faster with every single tick on the huge clock at the station. Her excitement and happiness has reached it's peak point and she could not wait to see his face, now. She walks towards the main gate, and still couldn't see him anywhere. She stands there, kind of worried, still with the happiness and excitement overtaking everything else. 

She closes her eyes, and begins to wish to see him, and as soon as she opens her eyes, there he was, right in front of her, smiling. The kinda smile you'd die for. And with that little shine in his eyes. The eyes that'd make your worst day better. 

She smiles back at him, and gives him a hug and a peck on his cheek. Everyone around them looked at them as if they were criminals. As if they care though. All they saw was each other, in the midst of the crowd, all they could see was each other. The rest was all stopped. Rather, everything else was moving, and they stopped. Looking at each other. 

Soon, a train siren blows up and they realize they were standing in the middle of the platform, looking at each other, so they decided to leave. 

They start to walk.

The girl asked him "where are we going"? 

He smiles at her and replies "I don't know" 

And after that, they kept walking, hand in hand, without saying a single word. 

Soon, they reach a riverside, they could see a small village on the other side of the river. 

They sat there, and talked. For hours. About how beautiful that place was, how undeniably happy they were to see each other. They kept talking, smiling, laughing. 

Sitting there, looking at each other, at times.

It was dawn, before they realized it. They lay down, holding each other's hands, looking up at the night sky. 

They were laying close to each other, as he suddenly whispers in her ears "I love you" 

She looks at him, and smiles. 

Her lips meet his, softly, and they hold each other in their arms and lay their, and soon fall asleep, holding each other. 

It suddenly became cold, freezing cold. She wakes up, just to find herself, curled up, in her bed. Still smiling. 

It was all a dream. Just a mere dream. Yet, the most beautiful and unimaginably perfect dream. 

Way more perfect than those stupid fairy tales in the back of her head. 

For those have an "happy ending" 

This dream, just never ended. It was there. Forever. And Ever.

Here. This one is for you, my love. (:

Relationships in this world are a lot more easier to break than the thinnest piece of thread.

^lol, that rhymed. HAHA

Oh all I meant to say was a little mistake, some hurtful words and a person is gone, away from your life. 

This is for my best friend. Yes, I still have this image of her as my best friend in my mind. 

I don't know what went wrong.

I said some horrible things, and she said the worse, and So did I.

Our little, beautiful world we lived in, which consisted of her and me, drained away in a day.

A two years long beautiful journey came to an end.

Well, I was the one who asked her to leave, so there's no one to blame but me. 

In anger, people say a lot of words they don't mean. And yeah, I accept it. I did. 

I told her that I hated her, a million times. But NO I didn't. 

I hated the fact that we hurt each other with so many harsh words, I hated the fact that something was making us drift apart, I hated the fact that we suddenly wanted each other to change, to be something else than what we were. I can't hate her, Hate is too huge of a word to be used for the girl I loved, rather, still love. 

People aren't perfect you know?

We got sick of each other, sick of making each other sad, I suppose? 

Somethings in life go away for good, and by good I mean, good for the people and yourself.

I don't hate her, that's all, I mean, no matter what happened, no matter what happens, no matter how much she envies me now, after I asked her to leave, and no I won't blame her for this, it's not her fault. She has all rights to be mad at me, or even dislike me. I know it's for good though. For her good and mine. 

Some people just become a huge part of your heart, and hating/disliking them is like disliking yourself. 

She is a part of me, somewhere, she plays a huge role in what I am today, and will always be. 

I don't want to detach her, from my heart, I couldn't, even if I tried to. I love her. Yes. I do. 

Despite of all our differences and harsh words, I don't have anything against her, AT ALL.

But, as I said before, somethings NEED to go away for good. 

well, all I know is, even if I am not a part of her life, anymore, all I can do is, pray for her, everyday, and know how she is, every once in a while. 

The lesson this taught me is, that love really doesn't need communication, At all whatsoever. 

I mean, I am satisfied, by knowing that she is happy in her life, rather than being in it and hurting her, in one or the other way. 

Somethings are just too weird to explain, like THIS feeling. 

I know I am always there for her, not psychically but a piece of my heart, belongs to her. I believe that It'll take care of her. 

I don't even know if she reads this, but if she does, by any chance, all I want her to know is, She is Awesome, AND beautiful. And she deserves to be happy, everyone deserves to be happy, and NO one, NO Person has the right to take it away from her, no matter how much that person loves you, not even me. Sadness is not what you deserve, not even a bit of it.

And I want to apologize, not for making you leave, but for thinking that I hated you. 'Cause I can't. Never did, never will. 

Its all for happiness. That's the only way I could repay you for everything you did for me. (:
umm, and yeah I love you. 

(:

Your presence is a present to the world.

You're unique and one of a kind.

Your Life can be what you want it to be.

Take the days just one at a time.

Count your blessings, not your troubles.

You'll make it through whatever comes along.

Within you, are so many answers.

Understand, have courage, be strong.

Don't put limits on yourself.

So many dreams are waiting to be realized.

Decisions are too important to leave to chance.

Reach for your peak, your goal, your prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.

The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.

Don't take things too seriously.

Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Remember that a little love goes a long way.

Remember that a lot ... goes forever.

Remember that friendship is a wise investment.

Life's treasures are people ... together.

Realize that it's never too late.

Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.

Have health and hope and happiness.

Take the time to wish upon a star. And don't ever forget: 

"For even a day ... how very special you are."

NOTE: Didn't write this. Read it somewhere, and thought it was worth sharing (: