Just Another Thought..

In the midst of a billion thoughts, running through my mind everyday, THIS is one I am stuck on. And It keeps repeating, itself, over and over again. The thought which says "You are not good enough". All the misconceptions you had about yourself being a good person, a good friend, a good daughter, it's all coming crashing down. You feel you are no one. Just simply non existent. You go through each day, smiling, laughing, doing everything you are supposed to, without any complaining, or whining, no matter how exhausted you are, you are happy. But..This one thought, ruins it all. This thought which never actually leaves your mind, it stays in a corner of your mind and heart.
When a person is left, or being deserted many times by their close ones, because of some other people, it gets too obvious, the person isn't good enough. Not good enough to stick around with. I know this sounds like such a big loser kinda thing, but maybe I am a loser. What else might be the reason for people leaving over, and over and over again? eh?
LOL. I remember how self-esteemed and self-confident I was. Nowadays, I just feel like just another trash, lying in the house, who goes to school, comes back, and is worthless. And What am I doing about it? Nothing. I actually can't really do much about it.
HAHA, people compliment me, about how good I look, or how good my art work is, about my hair, and I reply to them saying "thank you" with a smile. And I don't believe them. Not even a bit. 'Cause life has proven to me, every single time, that "No Adrishi, You are NOT good enough for anyone"

These lines by one of my best friends, well, once who was my best friend, "People leave you, 'cause they get sick and tired of you, you don't leave them, you don't have a choice, they do."
Can't believe how ABSOLUTELY right she was. Haha, I got mad at her for saying the truth. Stupid me.
But, All I want to ask is why? Am I that bad of a person? Or so easily forgotten by the people I can never forget? Wasn't I always there for people who needed me, once?

I feel ugly. > Yes. Exactly That. Ugly and Worthless.
And no one saying anything will have any affect on me. Because life has proven it over and over again.

I will survive with this ugliness and worthlessness, I guess. People survive through worse. So, yes, I will too.
No biggie.


Farewell. (: